Christmas season

Another great moments to celebrate the most important and joyous festival with my dearest on Christmas eve for Candlelight service and walking around at I-City. On the next day we went to the church for Christmas service then leisure shopping and a Christmas dinner. That's not forgetting the Boxing day after Christmas for gift exchange. We both were truly enjoyed and thank God for the holidays that was given to us.

Christmas Eve @ I-City

Christmas Day @ church

Boxing Day... so enjoy ~~

Our little 'moniversary'

We went to Alexis for dinner and to celebrate our sweet 'moniversary' earlier. I thought it should have the live jazz performance but was told the show is only performed in weekend. Just too bad but anyway, we enjoyed the ambiance much and not forgetting the food (cabonara & pizza) with the Italian and Argentinian house wines.

Most importantly, Elyse was happy and overwhelmed by surprise with the lovely roses i sent on that day... hehe... love ya sweetheart ~~

Why I Love You

My sweetheart sent me a lovely poem while i was in the midst of work. It was so lovely and feeling warm inside as i was reading to it, and i just couldn't help it, read it over and over again... together with my reply in red... love ya, sweetheart  ;-)

<< Why I Love You >>

You give me warmth 
When it is cold 

With You I want 
To grow old  

(My warmness hug hug for u is priceless and hugging you forever without end.)

You give me strength 
To carry on 
And when I am weak 
You show me how to move on 

(I won't let you fall when u're down and walking together to face and resolve any difficulties if there is.)

You dry my tears 
With Your amazing love 
It must be true 
You are sent from above 

(I'm your guardian angel for comfort whenever u're feeling pain and depress, and I also thank God for bringing you into my world sharing the joy together.)

You ease my pain 
You disperse gray clouds 
You show me 
What love is about 

(I'm just not as perfect as God but I'll do my best i could to be a better man and take good care of you.)

    

You find a way to make me smile 
Even if we are apart 
There's something I can surely say: 
My love for You comes straight from the heart 

(Well, it might be the 'power of Hercules' perhaps (how stylish huh :-p)... to make you smile and laugh but not to cry.)  

You must not forget 
That I love YOU 

(I will always love you... always do, always have.)

My heart is Yours and will always be I pray the day comes when we say: “I do” 

(Like the scripts are printed on church hymnal that i shown you earlier, prayed that we will read that in one fine day - "I do"..."I will".)

These words I wrote 
To complete my vow: 
My love for You will always grow 

(With all my heart and soul, i give my love to have and hold and far as i can see, u're always meant to be... my destiny.)

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默契是一种感应

默契实是一种感应，是内心深处一种最好的约定，不必用言语传递就能够表达心迹，不需要用心来指引也能够相互会意。我认为和谐的自然是默契之根，有了自然的和谐才有了相互的默契。因此我想，两个生物，两个性别，两种个性，两种经历，绝不是只靠一个有幸的缘分，一点共同的兴趣就能达到永久的和谐与默契的。

默契的前提是和谐，而和谐的前提是理解，和谐与默契的实现都要靠悟性，都要靠心灵的吻接。知心朋友若没有相互的理解，就没有最好的沟通，若没有很高的悟性和必要的付出，也就感受不到那种特有的和谐与默契。

在体育界的角度，不管是排球、足球还是篮球，所有保持胜利的球队，无一不是来自于队员们相互间的默契配合。同样的，生活中的甜蜜情人和相互依恋的美满夫妻，他们的默契，也绝不是与生而来和一成不变的。所有的默契都需要有双方的主动适应与磨合，需要共同的精心培育和习惯养成。还有两个人相信彼此才可以的，如果彼此都不相信彼此，有默契也没用。

默契是培养出来的，需要时间的培养。只要有共同的心灵感应，有相互间的理解与宽容，有经常的切磋、沟通与磨砺，就能取得最佳的快乐效应。

分开

最近我有个朋友显得有点失落很不开心，是应为和他住在一起的女友已经到国外工作了，而且还要去至少两年。之前，他们为了这件事已经吵了好几遍，男的当然不想也舍不得她去那么远，女的就想到国外闯一闯实现她的梦想。两年的时间，虽然说长不长说短也不短，可能是对他的一种暂时性的分开考验，看看彼此是否能够维持到最后吧。

两年的时间分开对我来讲已经是太长了，而且有很多东西可能会因此改变，变好或变坏谁都不会知道。但我相信，如果拥有了一些就会失去了一些，凡事有得必有失。

World Cup syndrome

It's getting to a month since World Cup was started in the mid of June, sooner it is coming to finale this weekend and i might have a good night rest again after spending precious times and energy watching it outside with friends in the middle of the night sometimes and at home as well. Although it is pretty tiring when watching it back to back continuously, especially when those big favorite teams matches were happened scheduled at same time frame...real jialat ! Sometimes i think whether it's worth chase-watching crazily for all the live matches. Surely the answer is NO, and i have been watching just only half of the 64 live matches, which is 32 matches so far... not too bad, still at the average level of watching rate i think.. :-)

There's too much of upset match results were happened in group stage round, especially  big favorite teams like France, Italy, England and Portugal were all failed to shine, got defeated and knocked out. With that, it was already enough to make them toke early flight home in shame. Perhaps it's even  made me like to see upset results, probably because i never gamble and didn't bet for any matches but just enjoy watching. Good that my supporting team - Argentina & Holland, were strong and steady in the beginning but somehow Argentina was terribly knocked by the Germans in quarter-finals recently. Now my hope is banking on Holland and hopefully they will through the final by sending Uruguay back home in semi-final later on, and lift the World Cup trophy on coming Sunday.   

Well, surely will not miss for both semi-finals and the grand finale matches in this coming week. All the best to the Netherlands-Holland-Oranje... let's 'Holland style' all the way ! ~~

Birthday thoughts

Well... my 'age counter' has been 'reset' once again, rolled back and counting from 'day 1'. Nothing much special or any big things to say about for my celebration but just glad to have small drinking sessions and dinner  with friends on my birthday eve, and not forgetting the World Cup season that brought me another kind of joy while watching it live and shouting for the team together ~~

New year new hope & resolution, getting new home for comfort living is always my first priority. That will be my second home and hopefully i will able to get a suitable one before my next birthday comes. Hopefully my career milestone can go to next level as well. If financial budget is allowed, second priority will be changing of car and camera upgrade. About the relationship... don't really expecting much for time being after the break-up, but will keep myself opened and let it come naturally along the way. Who knows if i meet my 'Ms.Right' one day and she may be somewhere around the corner ~~  :-)

After all, thank God for the blessed life, happy and sad moments, trails and dilemmas in all kind of forms that happened to me and have gone through it. Perhaps it makes me get stronger to face other challenges in life, in the days ahead.

Getting tired and hot

The days of CNY holiday are seems moving pretty fast since on the eve of CNY. Firstly was begun with family reunion dinner... cousins family gathering... friends visitations... gambling sessions... yum cha session and it's now coming to the 4th day (年初四) of celebration. I'm getting tired and got stiff neck today probably because of sleeping late or lack of sleep, and also consumed water lesser than Carlsberg/Tiger/Heineken (鬼佬凉茶). The bloody weather is also part of the reason, damn hot over last few days. I'm feeling like a 'hotdog' in days and nights, just hot and spicy ~~ 

Being busy or not during this festival celebration, my camera is a good companion - taking pictures everywhere as i go, taking down the happy moments and laughter. How nice when looking back at the pictures i toke, trying to recall the joyful memories that time...  Well, i don't mean to say i'm a professional but just doing my best, taking best shots i could and share it with friends whenever it's possible.

Leaving KL tomorrow for outstation holidays (Ipoh & Cameron Highlands) and meet-up friends there... will be back in two days !

活得开心是快乐的理由

其实女生想不想去依赖男生或独立，其实是很自然的，只是在乎于男生懂得女生的感受和关心她多一点。所以不要太过在意男生会不会接受女生的依赖或独立，喜欢的就是喜欢，不喜欢的怎么说也没用。 想多了，可能会给自己带多了一份失落感， 会开心对吗?

活得开心是快乐的理由，知足最重要。想清楚自己想要的是什么，也许会找到快乐的理由。好好把握和享受生命中的每一段过程，只因为它不会重来。

爱，其实是很简单。

刚看了篇朋友写的blog文章关于 ''习惯性的爱''，可能是她的blog网页有点问题吧，就是回复不到我的看法...

习惯性的爱
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我不懂习惯算得了爱吗。
首先是我爱你，你爱我，才让你融入我的生活中。
渐渐的习惯了你的存在。习惯了有你陪伴，
习惯了与你分享每件事物。爱没当初这么浓，但是习惯了。
开始会对对方有所要求了，开始埋怨对方的性格。
也就是开始测试谁爱对方多些。
谁肯让步，谁肯迁就。
习惯迁就，习惯让步。
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其实我也有点认同她的想法，只不过是需要理智一点的去处理。爱情是没有对和错，习惯了去爱一个人的好和坏习惯是接受。但如果是迁就的那么不快乐，彼此的感受都会承受不了内心的委屈和伤害。而迁就的那么辛苦，又何必再去勉强呢？

爱，其实是很简单。只要两个人走在一起感觉上是很舒服，快乐和自在，那就好了。

Difficult moment

如果我们一路来走的路是那么的崎曲而不快乐，彼此都会承受不了内心的委屈和伤害。我很痛很失落，但是不可以不再面对现实。这是我生命中其中一个最难的决定，结束是我不想要的结果，但分开可能是对大家最好的解脱。。。

现在我只能做到的是把我们以往开心的点点滴滴转变为一个美丽的回忆。未来会怎样谁也不能肯定而我也不能够保证些什么，只是希望以后我们彼此各走的路会有美好的将来。希望她会一切安好。

Dilemma

Life can be simple or it can be hard instead likewise for happiness. I understand this wisdom quote - "Happiness and sadness is just actually standing in between the line, that's the choice how you going to chose and want it to be.". Well, sounds easy to say than done and the dilemma i'm getting now has been haunting me ups and downs from time to time... and I don't really feel happiness in heart ever since we were made up together again.

I have been praying to God seeking for wisdom and answer over and over again whether we are really meant to be. He may already have given me the answer indeed but i just trying to runaway and ignore the fact. I appreciate our relationship and gave myself another chance to talk that out, hoping that it will get better understanding and comforts between us after quarrels when it happened but our relationship is never been better along the way and got back to square somehow.

I'm getting tired, really really tired to see that repeated over and over again. Perhaps it's time to take a break and treat myself better to prevent both of us suffer forever though it's happening. Lord, please give me the strength i need to move on...

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Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009

Just a week ago we were in Christmas season while enjoying holiday mood and now we have entered to another brand new year in 2009. Sooner and later, it would be Chinese New Year (Ox year) celebration that is just around the corner. Such a 'roller-coaster' holidays seems coming and going off pretty fast.

Looking back to 2008, all the things we made, we cherished, we achieved, we failed, we enjoyed, we shared and whatever... had once again becoming histories that have been written in our life journey album record.

Surely that's no turning back and it's pointless to look back for what we had done doesn't matter it's right or wrong, should or should not. Whatever is done, it's done and whether we like it or not, we gotta look forward and move on from one era to another in milestone of life, taking new things, chances, challenges or opportunities right ahead.

I prayed that every friend and everyone i know would have a nice & smooth flowing journey in family life, working life and in love. God bless & Happy 2009 !

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Being Happy

Being happy can be hard sometimes, it's like maintaining a nice home and got to hang on our treasures and throw out the garbage, and it also requires looking for good things as well. One person sees the beautiful view and the other sees the dirty window. When we're unhappy just because life is not as we want it and it's not matching our expectations of how it ought to be perhaps.

Well, it's true that laughter is kind of mechanism may heal person's unhappiness in a short moment or maybe a little longer trying to relieve pains or stress to minimum. I don' think I'm being negative thinking but it's a fact, and what happen next after laughter has gone ?

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Forget things not

Just had a chat with a friend of mine and got to know she left her mobile inside her jacket at office and problem is her jacket just hanging around her cubicle chair. She told me that's not her first time happened like that as she's not only left her mobile before but also house keys, wallet and even her laptop (goshhh...), and now she's worrying her mobile may get stolen at night. My advice for her not to think so much (unless to drive back to office), as many CCTV are installed around the corners and it should be safe by all means.

How forgetful... but i think she's just fine (human do make mistake sometimes) and maybe it's bit funny to hear that, just because... I myself also not the first time to hear she left things at office (hehe...). Guess i probably would get 'something' from her when she read this later :-p

Well, such forgetful case is not only happened to her but me as well. Even now it still happen to me from time to time. Those forgetful things were usually happened to me such as, forgot to bring car key out when i was going to get my car (that's ok); forgot to bring my wallet when i was driving smoothly in car (that's still ok provided i didn't get caught); forgot to bring my soccer boots when i reached football stadium (that's sucks); forgot to bring my brain to work sometimes when i wasn't get enough sleep or sick (that's weird but i couldn't help it), and many more perhaps. Hence, I do understand how people feel when they ever forget things themselves and they might get one or more reaction feelings like this normally - frustrating, regretting, nervous, worrying or helpless.

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Drinking lifestyle

That happened right after my colleague's wedding dinner as I went for drink with friends at 'The Curve' and spent some time in two of the pubs there...

Well, drinking at pub occasionally is fine as I've not been doing this for long time. It was fun while enjoying some good time with friends there but thinking I may be getting little old for this as i got to limit myself for alcoholic drinks nowadays although i still could take it. Perhaps my lifestyle has changed, i would leave the pub in 2 hours or most before my head started to 'ding-dong' here and there (headache) probably because of the loud bass music. Perhaps my time for hanging out at pub has passed but occasionally visit is still fine whenever it's possible.

If given a choice, I'd rather have it at open area/pub with friends, at least i still can breath the fresh air.

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Bloody hot weather

It's been a HOT sunny days that's happening right now and it's been going on more than 3 weeks (probably longer) without a single drop of rain. Imagine how bad of the bloody weather and i almost get pass out like a bloody 'hot-dog' every nights, every heat of the nights (gerrrrr... @*&^#$%^&...).

How nice with people are enjoying their 'song-song' sleep with air-cond at night in days like this. Also think about people who don't sleep with air-conds while got to shower 3 times in the night and sweat all over body probably just made him more sexy and macho... me la, who else !?

Normally i like sunset because it's romantic especially when walking along the beach, how nice (oh yah!) , but now i just hate that for now because the 'romantic' sunset is just shining right through my window again (oh Fxxx !)... 'Hot-dog' again...shittt !

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"尽其在我，简单是美"

I seldom use this Chinese phrase to show around and talk about. Maybe it doesn't mean anything in their eyes of my friends and probably they might just laugh it out. Well, that's fine with me as they don't believe i do have a phrase of my own. These words got my attention many years ago and it reflected my thoughts about the meaning of being simple. Even so, I still always used to remember it by heart till now.

The English translation of this phrase is - 'Try my best, simple is beautiful'. I like that because the meaning has given me a kind of simple impression towards life in whatever i do and wherever i go. As simple as that just like "随心随想，简单生活" (Think freely, simple life) that I've been thinking and hoping every now and then. ~ Go Simple ! ~

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